Friday, August 30, 2002

Hardly a day has gone by since I designed my journal page - I am tinkering with it again. It just didn't look right. I hope to finally settle down with this.

Bubbly is what I can describe my day today - full of people and full of laughter. I had friends come over to see how I am doing and the amount of food and flowers they brought. I wasn't even allowed to play the role of a charming host. ".....have to be careful...take it easy...relax ...sit down" So it was self service in my kitchen for my guests. lol The kind of guests you would like.. they wash the dishes before they leave. lol Very nice and sweet of them actually. I insisted that I am feeling much better and that I am no longer ill but no- they took care of everything while I did the babbling. Although I must admit it was a great feeling to be spoiled. Going to bed contented as a cheschire cat after lapping at it's milk.

Thursday, August 29, 2002

Big tired smiles here. I have finished the CSS style sheet for this page and it looks pretty good. It matches the rest of my other pages. I just wish that by tomorrow as I wake up, the big banner up there will miraculously disappear. Well after what I accomplished today, I feel a whole lot better compared to yesterday. I was feeling pretty moody because of some silly tantrums I had with a male friend. We will call him K. We are both overly sensitive by nature. I knew my reasons for my sensitivity but I dunno what's his. Anyway, it was my fault... it must had been one of those women's monthly thing.

Thing is I didn't understand myself either....I always wanted exactly the opposite and if I do get my way, I whine and pout. That's stuborness for you. I am not always like this just that I felt I am about to explode every second. Must be the water I drank! lol Well, whatever bug that was, I am glad it got rid of me or me of it. Poor K.. he had to suffer because of my moodiness and now he thinks he is listed on my little black book. The other day was worse. I was feeling a bit lethargic and that isn't good because it reminds me of things that is suppose to be long forgotten. But I certainly was glad to see a friend online who I haven't seen for ages. A good chat really cheered me up and put my thoughts on other things. Really good for a positive attitude. Makes me realize that I am not the only one with problems.

The gloomy weather don't help much in making me a bit more active that day, although there is something about storm and rain that fascinates me. I like the smell of air before a storm is about to happen. Smells very earthy. But I hardly noticed it - just in and out of my thoughts - thinking and not really thinking. I hope for a more positive attitude tomorrow.

I finally have my journal page and I am quite please to have this up. As I have mentioned in previous page, this is a sort of self therapy. You are welcome to read my ramblings and I hope you will find it interesting. Feel free to add your comments on my views and thoughts. They are certainly welcome.
The goal is to share with you a part of me. This is my means of keeping love ones up to date with the latest happenings and a medium for broadening my awareness.

You see, as we mature we begin to fear criticism, and tend to keep our inner thoughts and opinions to ourselves. Many people keep journals, of writing or sketching, but not many share them because it shows the innermost self. And that makes us vulnerable. Here you can share your thoughts freely. You will not be judged. And you will have company. This is for you. For everyone. God Bless xxxxx